Balance

Of all the values written on sacred tablets - modern and ancient, I feel that balance is the most challenging one.

Balance requires understanding of the whole spectrum, including the extremes. It requires objectivity and risk-taking. It requires the most noble of intentions. I feel that any form of indulgence only brings us there- but eventually. Perhaps, it is even a necessity. It however, requires the courage to tip the scale for the measure of its center.

It is a constant attempt.

I am reminded of my mother saying that - no matter what happens, do not abandon your private spiritual readings. Indeed it nourishes the soul. It invigorates it. Perhaps, not even so much of the words printed on paper, but that quiet time and attention that is granted one's soul.

I knew I was out of balance because I started feeling lonely. After years of depression, I became indestructible after that. When I started to see it creep in me again after such a long time , I got very alarmed, because I have been there. I know that there is no one and nothing that can help me out of it once I'm nailed once more.

I am seeking to go within once again. I am retreating to my books and my music and quiet walks alone.

Just a few pages and a few minutes of my bhajans, I was already able to start talking to people with ease again and actually - is rediscovering the joy of human interactions once more.