Staring blankly at horse's butts..

"I'M BORED" called out my daughter from her bedroom last night. She is doing exactly what she would do everynight ( play on her own, watch TV etc. ). Rahul just left for camp that afternoon.

There is a sweeping dullness in the house. An emptiness that got me dazed all day. I spent hours waiting at the gate where the horses stand for Aaliaa. Only to realise that they entered from the other gate. I picked her up and left as soon as possible to retreat back in my blank state.

Aali and I ate in the Tibetan Restaurant, shopped etc.. Hoping to entertain myself back to my normal state - but to no avail. Rahul used to go to camp for days, but it was never this disturbing. It's paralyzing.

Maybe we are just missing him too much.